I meditate daily, although at the moment I am getting sudden horny urges to masturbate. It feels strange. It could be a chakra imbalance in the sacral chakra which governs the reproductive organs, or it could be my kundalini energy awakening. My lower back has also been aching strangely, and I haven’t lifted anything heavy recently.
After a little weight training and rowing this morning my back feels a little better, but still I can’t control these sudden urges to orgasm every time I meditate. The spasms start in my legs and then they move to my inner thighs and vagina until my fingers move down and I rub myself friskily. Also I have noticed that my orgasms are some kind of a sexual tension release because I get really upset afterward. If anyone has an idea what the hell is going on with me, please leave a comment or send me a message on my contact form?
Two things are different. 1) I never used to masturbate during meditation, but now the urge is strong like something is possessing me, and 2) I already regularly masturbate because I enjoy doing it rather than experimenting for tension release, so I don’t understand where these ‘sudden’ urges and anger/emotional outbursts spring from after orgasm.
I don’t know how gurus and spiritual teachers can control their celibacy and orgasms. My orgasms are also stronger and I’m juicier than ever. Yes, I am strange.
