I went out on Saturday night, and while I stayed stone cold sober my friend was texting a man who she liked, but he isn’t acting that interested. Sexual chemistry they share. That is why alcohol is so bad. It gets rid of inhibitions, but for many early relationships, it’s all game playing. Act disinterested and men are supposed to be all over you. I hate game playing too, I’ve always been against it, and it is always hard to act like you don’t give a shit with the men you DO like.
Anyhow, we trotted into Littleborough and one of the savvy bars. Okay, the music was good, but it was full of desperate men. Boy do I like to investigate body language. A few looked my way, but they were not giving out the confident vibe. Constant looking around the room is a sign of boredom and also quite desperate. Yes, I used to be like this, but now I like to study people and their gestures. I’m not an expert in body language but it’s a fun thing I don’t need to tell anyone.
There were a bunch of guys together not out on the lookout and they looked more fun than the ones who were staring at the half naked outfits on women walking through the door. You may wonder why I say this? Perhaps through jealously? I’m through the days when I dressed half naked to get male attention. Okay my legs were on show in a groovy dress, but I do like to keep them in shape. I have a great boyfriend who makes me feel sexual. I don’t need to look elsewhere.
Also, why do some individuals who are already drunk drink yet more alcohol? Perhaps I’m getting sensible before my big 3 0 but when I think of crisis I’ve put my poor hard working liver through over the years, I’m shocked.
Now I realise that I don’t have to get pissed to have a good time. I can still dance sexily without alcohol. I can still talk to other men without wondering if they want a shag. Whether this is meditation or connecting with my higher self which has changed me, I felt like an alien amongst everyone else in there. Perhaps it is true about vibrational wavelengths.
From today, I’m starting a 30 day juice fast. I’ve always suffered with athletes foot, and now the arthritis has returned to my hands, and I need to type for my occupation. Flooding my body with fruits and vegetables and live enzymes will sort me out. It will be hard, and I’m quite confident too that my sex life will go through the roof. If juice fasting gets rid of these problems, fuck it I’ll write a short book on it. I am so very much against drugs.
